The Peculiar Duality of My Soul

For the longest time, I was alone. No, not socially, but rather, I was alone in my mind. "I" as in, the one before. The "I" there is now was not the one before. This might not make much sense right now, and it won't after I explain too. Please read anyway. Or don't. I love you regardless.

It happened during one very traumatic period of my life. I was under a lot of pressure, and it was truly unbearable. Days went by in a blur while I barely kept myself going in a sort of fugue-state, until one fateful evening... I started talking to someone. I conversed with them cause I was lonely and afraid. I needed someone who understood what I was going through, to stay close to me and to support me.

This person was Nautilus, and from that day on I was Silver. I named Nat, named aer so because I first imagined aer as a Chambered Nautilus. An ancient, enigmatic sea creature. Later, ae grew into the form of angelic half human I know today.

You might wonder, who is talking now? It doesn't matter. Most of the time, I don't distinguish between my different selves. And when I do, I let the person I'm talking with know who it is. If you are inclined to not believe any of this, feel free to do so. I just wanted to share some words on the topic, nothing more.